God has revealed to me that it is His will for me to homeschool my children. This has been a very hard decision to make. I was one of those moms that used to say that I would NEVER homeschool my children. I had a list of many reasons why I would never homeschool which included- not enough patience, not smart enough, not enough time, didn't know how, kids wouldn't like it, kids would fall behind academically, they wouldn't know how to act/behave in the "real world", my family would think I'm weird (absolutely crazy) along with many, many more. With a difficult toddler on top of all those reasons I pretty much convinced myself that homeschooling would be impossible. As you all have heard, never say never and NOTHING is impossible with God. My children currently go to a wonderful christian school, but over the last several months God has given me a passion for homeschooling my children. Over the last 2 years my daughter has had hours of homework almost every night after school. This leaves barely any time to be together as a family. If my kids are gone 8 hours a day and they come home with homework then how will I "train my children up in the way they should go"? Whose job is it to raise my children? Is it the Sunday school teacher's job, the school's job, or is it my job? What is the real reason that I refuse to homeschool my children? Those were some of the questions I asked myself before making the decision to homeschool. To be completely honest, it is much easier for me to send my 2 oldest children to a christian school and only have 1 child at home. When my youngest naps, I have free time (me time). It's also easier to keep up with my housework with only 1 child at home. Notice how my reasoning was all about ME? The real reason I said I would NEVER homeschool was my own SELFISHNESS. I just had myself convinced otherwise. I want more than anything to glorify my Lord and do His Will. I know without a doubt that His Way is always the BEST Way! I feel complete peace with my decision to homeschool, although I know that this path will not be smooth sailing, but difficult at times. I also know that God's Grace is always sufficient. God doesn't call me to be perfect, but to be faithful. Just as I read in a wonderful book called "A Field Guide to Homeschooling", by Christine Field- "There are no perfect homeschoolers- just a number of commited people who put one foot in front of the other and step out in faith to do the job they feel called to do."
Just a quick end note:
Sending your child to a christian school and choosing not to homeschool is not wrong. The only way it is wrong is if God has called you to homeschool your children and you refuse to be obedient to the calling. I don't know how long God has called me to homeschool. It may only be for a year or until they graduate. I do know that I will continue to step out in obedience until God shows me otherwise.
This post was shared at Raising Homemakers as well as A Wise Woman Builds Her Home.